I remember the 1st time I saw the ocean, my son took me, it was a rugged coast line, the tides came rushing in, the waves crashing against the rocks, water spraying up and all around—then the quiet as it receded-to build up once again, I watched it over and over and over. Something shifted in me, there was a longing in the very inner most part of me, it caused so many emotions to come altogether, whirling here and there, tears flowed for whatever reason. Maybe the vastness and the expanse of the ocean put into perspective how minute I really am? Just a speck in the grand scheme of things? Overwhelmed at the magnificence of my creator? It humbled me? It brought to me hope and a sense of peace? Peace in the midst of the roar of waves pummeling-wearing away at the sharpness of the boulders and rocks –an unseen hand pulling in the tide of water and then letting it go once again. The creator is in control! So it is with me-the roar of doubt, insecurity, loneliness, and whatever else, this world crashing against me wearing me down, I sense this whisper in the loudness of it all, calling out to me, “Come, Come, COME,---I am here, in the roaring and crashing, I am here when the waves cover the rock and you can’t see it. When you feel like you are going under this very second I am here. I am your place to stand.” How can I not choose to hear his voice? The very one that has created the universe is calling out to me-I may just be a grain of sand but He knows me, He cares and loves me, I am not insignificant to Him. I must choose to believe, it is my choice. He is here waiting. Lord, help me to find you, your peace in the turmoil of this life, the quiet in the storm, the whisper of you in the ocean, knowing there is an unseen hand, yours, holding me in your palm safe and secure. That I would allow you to smooth away the rough, sharp edges of my heart. Forgive me for the shaking knees, upset stomach at times, the tears, (though you collect my tears and save them) the struggles, I am determined to be strengthened by your presence, I will rest in your peace. Teach me Father God, show me your ways, thank you for your grace and mercy.
Just me,
Climbing to the
“Rock”
